There are those days of pure hate because they are not like they use to be. I will always love you and I will always cherish our memories.
I wanted our life to be a book, not a chapter. I would do anything to have you back
I miss panda and cookies adventures. I miss everything. I don’t want another guy picking you up off your feet. You were my special girl, I admit I was protective of other guys trying to talk to you but i had my reasons. You say you think you will just get hurt again or keep hurting me but I don’t want to hurt you anymore and I promise if we both put our minds together and work on it we can do this. I just want to be happy with you.
I pray every night that you would just turn around and be the girl I know and tell me it’s okay and tell me that you miss me and everything we did.
I’m hoping god will bring us together again. I can’t live without you, I really can’t.
FUCCCCKKK!!!!! Why did I have to be such a horrible person unintentionally. 😢
Is this all so crazy to you? Is it scary that it had to come to this? I mean not long ago we were cuddled up in bed being cute and happy and then all of a sudden it comes to this. Does that not shock you like would have you ever expected it. Does it hurt at all, I mean after everything absolutely everything it is now like this. What was your plan with us? What did you want? I’m not a bad person I didn’t mean for any of this to happen.
Can you explain to me what I really had to do for it to not come to this? Because right now I’m really scared, I’m really upset and I absolutely hate myself to bits. You were everything and my life to me. If I could of would go back months ago and be a better person and make you happy. I just wanted you to trust me and believe in me.
Right now you are probably listening to other people saying you can do better you don’t need him. When you once told me you could never let me go, you could never leave me. We were meant to be. I just wish there was something in you that would make me happy again, giving me one last opportunity to show you how a girlfriend should be treated. Scared because the next girl I think I’m just going to end up hurting, she won’t understand me like you did.
I can’t do this, I really can’t. I wish you would understand that. Please give me some sought of sign or hope that I would have with you in the future. I miss you, I love you, you were the best person to ever walk into my life. I don’t know if you know this but I really wanted to get on one knee for you.
Please don’t throw me away for good. At least still talk to me and tell me how you are. I would do anything for you to still be apart of my life somehow, I do to care how just please. This is the first time I’ve ever been so upset, I’ve ever begged and fought so much. Please.
They say you can’t be fixed by the person who broke you, But I don’t believe them. Because having your arms around me made all of my problems go away, And feeling your lips against mine made me forget I was ever sad. When you left, my problems came back and I remembered my sadness. It lingered around me and created a weight on my shoulders, The way your name lingered on my lips and your memory made my heart heavy. I think if you came back I’d be okay. I think if you held me again, and kissed me softly, I’d be able to pull myself together. Please come back. I don’t want to be sad anymore. bambimaccas